So many people care about you, love. Just talk to someone and they’ll help. You don’t ruin anyone’s lives. You were put in their lives for a reason. People care, and I’m one of them. I love you.
If you’re concerned about your weight, I’d try to eat healthier. You’re not gonna wake up the next day and be skinny; it takes time. Eating right is a good way to lose weight because you’re not gonna make yourself sick by doing it. Work out a bit, too. If you’d like..
If you’re feeling depressed, see a doctor.
Do it anyway. Show her that you’re serious about this, and you truly love her more than anything.
Have you tried a long distance relationship?